500 pages later

I spent my entire '4' day weekend grading papers. Papers that I had put off and put off and now were lurking! I had a really hard time getting motivated on Friday to get into gear which resulted in staying up until midnight to finish one class of research papers. I finished the second class on Saturday. On and off yesterday I spent the day grading the rest of the papers I had collected throughout the week and now there is not one piece of paper in this house that hasn't been graded and recorded...YEAH!

But, where did the weekend go, and why do I do that to myself? The end of the school year is always a bit stressful,but I surely don't need to add to it do I?

Lesson learned!!!! Until May 2010 :)

X & Y Chromosomes...do they both matter?

When my daughter was born, everyone told me she looked EXACTLY like me. It was questionable if Todd was even part of the conception process. Now, we can definitely tell that Kendall belongs to both of us. She may look like me, but she has so many of his tendencies.

Kendall will never have to go through her life with that little hint of wonder. The slightest question lying in the back of her mind who her parents are or which one she is like. But, for her mother, that is the story.

My mother was honest me when I was a kid. My biological father did not want to be part of my life. That should be enough for me to NOT want to know anything further, but it's not. I have this small inkling to know more. I have always been told that I resemble my mother, but what does that mean about my father? Do I have the tendencies of him, just like Kendall of Todd? Do I share a resemblance to him in some way?

I always pictured learning about this man from a distance. Standing on the other side of the street watching....does he have other kids-does that mean I have siblings that I so longed for when I was a child? Does he have a good life? Part of me will always wonder while the other part will always be mad. How could someone turn their back on a child? So for now, I just sit and wonder...maybe someday I will take the next step.

Is that girl really 4? Part II

So last night as we were out to dinner I got to thinking about how much Kendall has changed over the last few months. She now insists on going into the bathroom stall by herself. She has grown up enough to just use the booster part of the booster seat. She buckles her own seat belt. Wow...that little girl isn't so little anymore! What will I do in August when she offically turns 5!!!!

Happy Anniversary!!!

Today Todd and I celebrate 7 years together and although we have been together for over ten years, it just doesn't seem that long. Kendall brings me back to that reality that has been a long time. Todd and I have been through many things in our short seven years, but I wouldn't trade it for a million years. Todd is my one true love. We have created a beautiful family. He is the one person in this world who accepts me for me and loves me unconditionally, faults and all. I hope one day Kendall finds her one true love and is as blessed as I have become.

Just another spring weekend...

Today, I did ALL the things I should've done yesterday and nothing of what I should've done today. Todd was so desperate to see Star Trek he talked Kendall into going. She "kinda" liked it. She liked it when they were on Earth and not in space. Probably would be my thoughts too. Todd loved it...and he isn't really a treky (or is it trekie...). I spent time treating myself to lunch and a little window shopping. After I picked them up, I recruited Todd to do some handyman work for a friend. Later we went to Avon to window shop some more and to eat. We left the house at 10:30 and didn't get home until 8...not quite what I was expected when I agreed to drop them off and pick them back up, but oh well. We all deserve a day to just mess around from time to time don't we?!

Today though, I had to make up for all that I didn't do the day before and then some.
What did I do today you ask????

• cleaned the kitchen
• cleaned the living room
• mopped kitchen floor
• gave Maximus' cage a good washing
• cleaned bathroom
• mopped bathroom floor
• put away laundry
• washed more laundry
• put even more laundry away
• cleaned out the garage
• put a couple items on craigs list
• helped Todd put in the invisible dog fence
• put away a big pile of crap that was on top of the dryer
• went to town to pick up a pizza and get a fountain coke

Wow...that list was long...I have a pile of things to do for work, but just can't make myself do any of it.

So even though I didn't get to the stuff on the list I made Friday, I still accomplished a lot of other stuff I found needed done. I wonder what I will do tomorrow. Oh yeah...that pile...

Is that girl really 4?

Today when I dropped off Kendall at school, she had her spring pictures in her cubby. I could hardly believe that was my little girl. I sometimes find myself not believing that she is soon to be 5. She is so grown up already. Like for example when she is telling me I am no fun or when she doesn't like me. I can't imagine at 5 year old saying this to their mother...13...DEFINITELY, but not 5!!!! Or how about when she rolls her eyes at me? And says things like Don't even....WHAT???? Where did this teenager disguised in my sweet little girl's body come from???? It looks like we are going to need lots and lots of medication to make it through the next 15 years!!!

Turning 30...

Todd turned 30 almost two years ago. He really hated it. He has this fear of getting old. I, on the otherhand, am not concerned about turning 30. I still feel young. I don't see turning 30 as the moment my life changes and things start going downhill. Does it make feel old in terms of wanting another baby....definitely. Do I feel today, right now, at this very moment of being 30 and 1 day...Not at all!

Prologue

I love reading blogs of those I know, but I haven't been one to post my own. Scared...probably. I wonder if I will know what to write. And then I wonder, will anyone really be interested in reading about the Burchell experiences...maybe, maybe not...Only time will tell. And in the words of Todd, "It's all part of the experience!"